whale wars

Saturday night I had the boys out in down town Melbourne.  We did some pottery and we were walking to that new pizza place called Trakk's when we realized that there was a parade the next block over.  So, we stopped and watch a little bit of it ( it was a little ghetto, but the boys didn't seem to mind much).  So then we headed down and had some pizza and played some pool (which by the way both boys are really good at; way better than me too!)  By the time we started walking back to the car it was late.  On our way John Michael stops me on the side walk and says in his loudest voice:  "STEPHI!!!!  I HAVE TO BE HOME BY 9 O'CLOCK BECAUSE I CAN NOT MISS WHALE WARS!!!!!"   

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone.....just sitting here with my mom fixing some turkey and ham and sweet potatoes and all the other stuff....listening to Tracy Chapman who is sooooo cozy :) what a good day this is, I love cozy times!  I love you guys.....hope your day is as good as mine....enjoy your family time.

Something happened to me this morning.......I woke up on the right side of the bed! Yeah that's right! I somehow see a little clearer, everything is a little brighter. Things I didn't see before, I do now. Thoughts have changed, feelings have changed...and it's all good! Strangely it feels good and encouraging, is it the right way of thinking?...well I don't know and quite frankly I don't care anymore....you live you learn, but watch out world because there's a whole new Stephanie in town! Whaaaaaa Whoooooo!

Life...I just can't get enough

I just love life sometimes....even when it sucks, even when it hurts, when I am annoyed, when I am sick with a fever and a sore throat, when I am angry, when I am sad, when I screw up and when I prevail, when I'm tired and I want to go to bed early but I can't because the baby upstairs is screaming his head off, even when my heart hurts and I cry so bad that my eye balls feel like they are going to pop out of my head, when I am lonely, when I am hanging out with my best friends in the whole world, when people let me down, when I let people down, when I love, when I am loved, when I feel peace, and when I feel challenged......feeling makes me feel so alive! I love all these things because I know that through it all I am growing and gaining in knowledge and wisdom and being stretch and formed into the person I am to be; into Stephanie Lea......life is so fascinating! I love it and I love you :)

Music

So Saturday night I went to see Ingrid Michaelson in Orlando.....and it was such a good show (even though I missed my favorite song Far Away). She played with 3 other girls who were really awesome as well! It was such a cozy chick show. I love music so much....wish I could sing like that :(

Life is weird

Sometimes in life we are faced with questions that are so damn hard to answer. For instance, should we love without fear and accept the pain that might come with it or should we just sit back, relax, not really take chances and have a peaceful existance in which you bypass the pain that love can bring? I know the answer seems obvious, but the 2nd one actually is pretty nice and much easier to do. It's nice to only have to worry about and be responsible for yourself. It's so easy to be selfish and do what I want to do when I want to do it. Most people are bummed about being single, but not me.....I am very much enjoying it....almost a little too much I suppose. But you know what's weird is just when you think you've become comfortable with life and you have reached the place where you are ok without having a love, the winds change and everything gets all stirred up..........love comes in, dances all around, and then leaves you :( but only to show you exactly what you are missing out on in life by chosing to be comfortable. Ah, love is sooo bitter and sweet all at the same time.....kind of like those sour patch kids :) damn those sour patch kids.

facebook

Facebook is really frustrating! I don't understand why it tells me what everyone is doing every time they log on. So and so just signed this person's page, so and so is now friends with so and so....this is soooo annoying...I don't want to know everyone's every move. I think I like myspace better, I might have to move back over there and get rid of the facebook.

they grow up so fast

I was in the car with the boys today and we were just listening to the radio zoning out.  That song "I kissed a girl and I liked it" came on and Jamie says, "Stephi, why is that girl singing about kissing another girl?  Why would two girls kiss each other anyway?"  Yeah, o.k. I had no idea what to say, so I just told him "maybe the song isn't about her, maybe she is singing about someone else."  I surely didn't think that would be a sufficient enough answer, but he took it and starred out the window.   Yeah, next he'll be asking about the birds and the bees.  Needless to say, I turned the radio off because it sucks anyway. 

sleepovers rule!

So me and the boys are having a sleepover at my apt.  They are very excited.  Wings from long doggers and a movie, all snuggled up on the futon!  good times.  We'll see how it works out.  Hopefully no one pees the bed...haha..jk!  

Babe?

So today I picked the boys up from school (parents are out of town) and their mom promised them a trip to toys r us.  I took them and Jamie picked a new skateboard and John Michael picked some Tony Hawk thing.  After I got done paying for it I said ....

ME: "what do you say guys?"

JAMIE: "Thank you.....or should I say, Thanks Babe!"

ME:  "uh, did you just call me 'Babe'"

JAMIE: "yeah"

ME: "I'm not sure how I feel about that?"

switch-a-roo!

I switched over to blogger.... thought it would be a little easier to navigate.  I was having some issues with my other blog, so here I am.  Hopefully this will work out better for me.  

Well today I called into work because I am sick and in pain.  So how come I am writing a blog?  Well because I broke down and had to take a pain pill, so I'm feel real nice right about now :)  I will write more later....