This describes how I feel lately, "buckets of rain, buckets of tears, got all them buckets comin' out of my ears". (bob dylan)

It's good to be reminded of love from time to time....that even though more often than not it's hurtful, negative and selfish, every now and again it can be good (even if it only last for a second). 

why?

The other night I found that John Michael has a candy stash underneith the top cushion of the recliner chair. I lifted it up and about a thousand pieces of candy fell out and I just looked over at him without saying a word and he said "what? it's my candy stash." I haven't laughed that hard in a while :)

"Fantasy is what people want, but reality is what they need." -Lauryn Hill

Ahhhh, so it's been awhile.....wow..since like January,  well it's not that I haven't had anything to say, it's just that I haven't really been wanting to type about it.  So, life is good....thinking about moving to Colorado, but not really sure if it's time....who knows what will happen.  I have just come to accept the fact that I can be a little unstable and flighty at times.  Well, for now I'm here, I've been living out of a suit case for almost 2 weeks now.....and strangely there's something settling about it, I kind of like it....I wish I could just travel around for awhile until I get it all out of my system.  Life is weird sometimes, but I guess that's what makes it exciting.  Well, these days I love to ride my bike, tend to my garden, hang out with my friends and dream about the future:) I love the sunny yet slightly windy days we have been having....they're pretty yummy!  Besides the fact it will be 100 degrees, I am excited for summer.  I love being outside and at the beach...makes me feel like a kid again.  Well, that's all I got for now....I'll post again later.  Oh and by the way Happy Easter!

I get out of all your boxes

Lately I have grown so sick of people. Not all people, just those who try to put me in a box because they can't understand or define me. I am sick of those people who for some reason feel like they have the right to judge me as a person, yet haven't spent one minute of their time to even get to know me. I am sick of those who demean my character for the sake of their own personal gain or to save face in front of their friends because they're scared of what they might think if their true identity was to be revealed. I am sick of people who speak lies of me behind my back and are too afraid to confront me to my face. Why are people so afraid to feel something deep? Why do people care so much about what other people think? I am done trying to justify myself. I am done compromising my thoughts and my heart for the comfort of others. Think what you want... but we are all just humans trying to figure out this life we have been given...and no one person is better than the next. I long to surround myself with people who have a hunger for life and a passion for people...those who are not afraid to love and to love deeply....those who don't label you as "phsycho" because you care about someone.